WOW-2009 flew right by me! Where did it go? So much changed, but definitely for the better! Those of you who keep up with us here know all that's gone on, so no need to review, LOL. If you wanna know, feel free to read past blogs.

As for Christmas, well...in the words of Monster, "IT WAS SUPERFANTASTICAWESOME." We had my parents & sister Lindsey, as well as Matt's family (& Brittany too!) over for dinner & presents on Christmas day. It was a chaotic fun mess which made my OCD brain go crazy, but I wouldn't change a minute of it!  Monster & Monkey got each other an LPSO (for those w/out girls, that is code for "Littlest Pet Shop ONLINE") & I am SO glad they each picked out the "right one" for the other! They got Beast a twinkle lights & sound star stacker thing. Of course, my dad got her one too! That's ok, now she'll have one for travelling to grandparents (teehee). Have I ever mentioned, my dad's criteria for at least one present each year? Well, it has to be annoying; i.e. make noise & lots of it!

The girls had a blast. I am so lucky to have three beautiful girls who are grateful for even the smallest things. I think their favorite gifts were the rubber frogs- yep, rubber frogs that cost all of $1 each! Of course, it may have something to do with the fact that they each got a coupon for a LIVE FROG too! Yeah, I think that was the kicker. They also loved the "Disney Princess Cookbook" I got them. They wanted to stop opening presents and make something right at that moment! Silly little monkeys!!! It was so fun to watch all three girls open presents. Even Beast did a pretty good job.

I honestly can still remember every Christmas with our girls! Monster was 7 months her first Christmas. Matt & I had only been together about a month, but we knew we were forever. She spent her first Christmas Eve at my mom's house & the look on her face was priceless when she opened her first presents! Monkey's first Christmas was hillarious. She just wanted to crawl around and eat the bows!

I haven't had a chance to watch this year's video, but I'm sure there were some moments I missed in all the craziness! YAY CAMCORDERS!

SIDEBAR: If you don't video your kids, START NOW! Each little moment may not seem like much, but they are precious. Sometimes we get it out when we're just sitting around playing a game or talking.

Ya know, it isn't always the big things. My favorite moments are the ones that no one would ever care about but me. Saturday night, as I was doing dishes after dinner, Monster said "Mommy, I'm going to save my best last kisses for you at bedtime tonight because you are the best turkey cooking mommy ever and I missed you for every spider when I was gone."  That is extra special because usually, Matt gets her "last kisses" because she's such a daddy's girl. Come on, would you trade that moment? Or when Monkey says, "Mommy, can you hold me for just a little bit before bedtime because I miss you so much when I am asleep." AWWW! NOPE, nothing compares. Well, maybe those moments in the early morning before anyone else is awake when Beast opens her tiny eyes and says "mamamamama" and giggles at me until I snuggle her in my arms. Yeah, I think all three make the top 10!

I've spent a lot of time thinking, praying, and talking to people that REALLY matter this year. Matt & I are making 2010 count! We're changing our hearts. That's right. Not our minds, not our attitudes- OUR HEARTS. We've let our emotions and bitterness control us in the distant past, but not in 2010! GOD IS IN CONTROL! An evangelist spoke at our church & he really touched my heart. One statement he made was "You may think you are in control, but guess what- God made air, God WINS!" For some reason, it really stuck with me.

I have no right to ask God to do anything. From now on, may his will be done! He is definitely proving it right now. It doesn't matter what I do, HIS will is what matters. Whoever would've thought that THIS is what God wants? I can only hope he REALLY knows what he is doing, LOL!

Anyway, 2010 is going to be full of surprises & I can't wait to start it with a big one! Santa left our family a present that we can't open until January 11! Of course, Santa told me what it is & it's driving the girls nuts, but it has to be that way for a few reasons. They are going to be so surprised & I can't wait to see their faces when they find out what it is!

2010 is going to be a busy year, that is for sure! Monster will turn 7 (OMG), Monkey will start kindergarten, Beast will have her first BDAY & we will celebrate our 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY! (oh, & Matt will have his 10 yr reunion-he's so old, LOL) Where does all the time go? It feels like that football game was just a few weeks ago, not over 6 years! Sometimes I just want to freeze time & keep the girls the way they are right at that moment. Others, I want to speed it up so they are older & we are experiencing new "big girl" moments!

Ok, I am getting misty eyed thinking about how blessed we are. This was supposed to be a quick update, but I think that's long gone. I hope you all had a very merry Christmas & I wish you the best in 2010!

Snow, Snow, Beautiful Snow

So, yeah...there is this "beautiful snow" on the ground, but it also means I can't get my last-minute Christmas shopping done...I guess its a good thing that we're doing our Christmas a day late! We can enjoy the lovely weather (LOL) and some time together this weekend! Ashley spent the night with Angie, so I'm sure she'll be rested up & ready for some snowball fights this afternoon!

Christmas is going to ROCK his year! The tiny tiny one has learned how to unwrap presents...yep, found that out the hard way . Its ok, she only opened one for herself & she won't remember it anyway. I guess that comes along with the territory of having a crawler that is ONLY 6 MONTHS OLD! Anyway, we'll have the joy of watching all 3 of our girls opening presents & playing this Christmas...I can't wait. Can it get any better? Oh wait! IT CAN!!! My parents & Matt's parents, as well as a few of our brothers & sisters are joining us for dinner Christmas Day & SANTA PRESENTS the next morning! I'm so glad Santa has the extra time to run around!

On another note...Angie's surgery went SO WELL! I am so proud of her for choosing to undergo this process so that she can watch her 3 gorgeous grandaughters grow everyday (and whoever else comes along ). It wasn't an easy choice, but she's a fighter! She's already lost 30 lbs! YOU GO ANGIE!!!

In case you haven't heard...I have the best in-laws ever! I don't say much about my father-in-law here, but he is the greatest! I am so glad my husband learned how to be a husband & father from him. Larry SPOILS Angie & would give anything he had for anyone else, even if that means he has to go without. Our family is definitely one that sticks together & has a great time doing it. I am so blessed to be a part of this & wouldn't trade it for anything.

The new year is going to be an experience, that's for sure! January needs to hurry up & get here! I can't hold in the surprise much longer! The girls are going to be SO SURPRISED & EXCITED!!! (yay!)

Hope everyone has a MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR! I'll probably find some time for our annual Chrsitmas Letter & New Year's Resolution, but right now I'm off to make some fresh apple cider & some cookies...yummy!

A few quotes

How's everone in blog land? Life's been pretty quiet (YAY!) and it gets better everyday. You guys know I love my quotes (all 10 gazillion of them) & a few of you've sent me a few good quotes recently, so I wanted to share them. If you want to comment, leave 'em on my page, not here. I have those private. Enjoy!

"Change hurts. It makes people insecure, confused, and angry. People want things to be the same as they've always been, because that makes life easier."

“I believe the only people that should be around a child and raising a child are people who absolutely, 100 percent love that child.” Angelina Jolie

“Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, 'cause hate in your heart will consume you too." Will Smith

“We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.” Charles R. Swindoll

“It is always the simple things that change our lives. And these things never happen when you are looking for them to happen. Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so. You feel like running, but life is on a stroll. This is how God does things.” Donald Miller

“The great thing is, if one can, to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions in one's "own" or "real" life. The truth is, of course, that what one regards as interruptions are precisely one's life.” C.S. Lewis

“As you begin changing your thinking, start immediately to change your behaviour. Begin to act the part of the person you would like to become. Take action on your behaviour. Too many people want to feel, then take action. This never works.”John Maxwell

Love Story

A friend posted her "love story" & asked all her friends to write theirs, so here goes! I WANT YOURS TOO!

I met Matt in HS. We had an Algebra class together, said hi in the halls, and he was friends with my HS boyfriend. He was a year ahead of me and when he graduated, I honestly couldn’t have cared less (love ya babe).

We lived our lives in completely different ways for the next few years. I went to WCU & had a blast! He started what he THOUGHT was a family that only turned out to be a nightmare, with one blessing that I wouldn't change at all.

Nov 7, 2003... There was a play-off game @ our HS alma mater & I wasn't going to go, but one of my BESTEST friends, Linda, was doing the ticket table & asked if I would keep her company. Of course, I would never turn down a chance to socialize, especially since I was supposed to leave for England in a few months for an Au Pair position! Well, Matt walked up & we started talking...he never made it into the game!

We went to IHOP to catch up afterward & we talked about everything! We were there for a few hours. I found out that he & JohnR (another one of my BESTEST buddies) were moving in together at the end of the month. So, it was easy to see we were going to see a lot more of each other. I wasn't thinking of it in a "relationship" sort of way AT ALL.

Well, long story short, we went out a few times as friends. Then, one night after a movie & some video games w/JohnR, we kissed! It was nothing expected, yet it felt completely right. A few days later, my au pair position fell through because of some passport issues. I was upset at the time, because it was something VERY random that kept me from getting one. In fact, it turned out to be a BIG mess that was solved with a click of a mouse! So, you gotta wonder...

So, Matt & I started dating exclusively & here we are 6 years later. Although its not a walk in the park some days, I know its that forever love that everyone dreams of finding one day. The way each tiny “coincidence” having to fit together just right shows God definitely has a purpose but also a sense of humor. I am so blessed to have found him & to share our lives, our children, and our dreams! If you haven’t found that person, KEEP LOOKING! DON’T SETTLE!

Off to Mady's preschool Thanksgiving Harvest luncheon!

MOOOO

3:00 and all is well! Hope everyone's had a great week! Thnx for all the support in the last few weeks. I wouldn't know what to do without my friends & family! Life's changing & we're trying to keep up. Who knows where this latest news will take us. We're a little scared of what it will mean for our family, but ready!

The Truth Project keeps getting better & I'm sad to see it end in two weeks. I'm HAPPY it's made a difference in my life, our home, and so much more!

The girls are LOVING basketball. Monkey played in her first scrimmage this weekend. Ok, so, she stood in one spot with her arms crossed for a whole quarter...BUT the second half she ran with her team, was passed the ball & was nice enough to share with the other team (LOL). Unfortunately, Monster had to miss it due to "HRC," but she'll ROCK IT @ the next one! They can't wait to pick out their basketball shoes this week!

Fall Festival was cancelled for lack of parent volunteers & pre-orders. HELLO? GC Parents, WAKE UP! Although, the ones that are reading this are the ones I can call to help with anything, so, I guess I'm preaching to the choir. I'm not sure what's changed in the last few years. GC was a FAMILY-now we can't depend on a few parent volunteers??? WHAAAT?! grrr

Gotta go, Beast's hungry & that's my cue! MOOOOO (LOL)

Yep, I said Rabid Squirrel. I was nearly attacked by one this past weekend. See, what had happened was...

Our unit was going to T-Bonez @ Myrtle Beach for dinner. Treva & I didn't want to walk through the tall grass (why when there is sidewalk?) so we went the long way. No big deal right? OMGosh! So, this squirrel jumps out in front of us (startled, stil no big prob) & just stops & stares. So, we keep walking but he doesn't move away, he comes toward us! WHAT ANIMAL DOES THAT? LOL, anyway, so we had to run past him so his tiny little squirrel teeth and claws would not get us. Ok, so, maybe he wasn't rabid. I'm sure he's just used to people feeding him, but I could have died. AND you know you laughed when you read the story! That was the goal; to give you guys a good laugh for the day! :) But, if you REALLY want a good laugh, check out the HILLARIOUS video of Rachel & Tyger doing the "Oprah interviewing MK NSD Lynne Holliday" and you'll be good to go for a while!

Well, other that the rabid squirrel near death experience , this weekend was GREAT! We had our annual Holliday National Area Beach Retreat. It was filled with fun, learning, laughing, crying (good tears mostly, except the few I cried missing my tiny ones), some more laughing, goal setting, relationship building (with my MK Sisters), and so much more (even some pumping so my boobs didn't explode, LOL, thanks ladies for the laughs). It was so much to fit into 3 short days! BTW, you have to check out our "Grease" picsas soon as I upload them! I helped re-write the scene where Rizzo & the Pink Ladies sing "Look @ Me, I'm Sandra Dee" to fit into our MK world! We won 1st place AGAIN this year! So, you'd better "BRING IT" next year R.H.! We'll be ready!!!

I have had so many great things happening lately & I know its only getting better! I'm ready to listen God, you can stop throwing the bricks! :)

Thanks for the comments girls (and guy) but a few of my friends have already been attacked/bothered for their support in the past, so I'll keep your pages & comments to myself so you can avoid all that!

To answer you: Matt & I are doing great. He's really been moved by all of this as well. Changes really are happening & I am so blessed to have him. He's become so much more than I ever could've wanted. The other night I was reminded how much he cares for his family & to what lengths he will go to protect us in every way. He may have lost his head for a moment with that person, but I am so proud of his actions afterward!

Close friends and family know our oldest daughter's current situation. We are doing everything in our power to give her the solid home and family she deserves. I can't say the same for everyone in her life and that makes me feel more emotions than I feel comfortable sharing here. I will say this, I cried while talking to my mother in law the other night about it. How can someone claim to love a child but not be willing to be in THEIR life. Sure, its easy to say "I can't because..." but having a child means being ever present. Otherwise, are you really a parent? Can you say you're raising your child? I've come to the realization that you can't MAKE someone be a parent no matter how much you wish they would be.

I'm sure we'll end up back in court because it seems nothing will be "good enough" until Monster is torn apart & we've all spent our time/money to fight over a child that is perfectly happy, loved, and safe. One day, they'll look back & realize they lost her to themselves, not us. They'll know that their time & money could've been best spent on raising her, spending time with her, and being a part of her life, not fighting over her.

I hate that we have to spend our money that could be put towards so much, but she's definitely worth it. So what that I can't buy "everything" I want. We have so much already it doesn't matter. Plus, my family is wonderful! My dad LOVES to spoil the girls & I know they'll NEVER want for anything...well, except maybe that pony, LOL!

We've chosen to follow God in our home and trust in His will for our family. I guess that's all we can do right now. Of course, sometimes I wonder if we are strong enough to be what our daughters need. But then I remember that God has given them to us according to His ultimate plan. I don't need to know why or how, just that there is a reason & a season for everything. If that changes in the future, I'm sure I will question Him, but I will still need to trust in Him. There is NOTHING that God's will can not affect. Remember that.

So, enough of that! This Sunday we dove into the relationships and systems that God has created. Marriage & Family were a big focus. I never thought I would say this but I am ready to be in submission to my husband. Isn't that crazy to hear from ME of all people? LOL I KNOW! But, here's the catch...submission doesn't mean "obey" or "be under his control" or have any other negative connotation. It means respect, listen to, share life, and so many more postive things.

Husbands, love your wife as you love God. Yep. Fully complete, pure deep love without blame or expectations. When you love her like that, respect will be automatic. One day you will be held accountable in God's eyes for the state of your family. If that isn't motivation, I don't know what could be.

I am so blessed to be where I am right now. I'll be getting my girls up in a few mintues from their warm beds to start their daily walk not only in life, but in the Lord. The differences in our home are remarkable. What a difference a day makes. I can't wait to see where our journey takes us!

We can't change the past, but we sure can make a dent in our present & future!

LIVE OUT LOUD - the new LOL

Hey people! I have a few minutes to spare while Monkey sleeps & my tiny one is sitting in her playpen playing with toys. YES, I said SITTING! Saturday night she sat up from a lying flat position, so I figured it was coming soon, but OMGosh not this soon! Last night, I laid her down in the playpen (which still had the bassinet in it) and turned around to get her a few toys & when I turned back, she was sitting on her knees trying to pull up! AAARGH! Don’t get me wrong, I am SO happy that she is so smart, but I want her to stay my baby for at least a little while longer!

But anyway, that’s not what this blog is about! I wanted to share about our church’s Truth Project and its effect on me so far!

The past two Sundays we studied Creationism vs. Darwinism (evolution). We looked at all the evidence science gives to prove Evolution. I even DVR’d the specials on “Ardi” that came on the Discovery Channel because I wanted to be educated a little more on what Science is saying about where we came from. Do you know how many holes & contradicting theories there are about evolution? Do some real research & find out more! Anyway, I feel I can honestly have an intelligent conversation about my faith vs. evolution after we’ve put science under a microscope.

Then, this week, a different question was posed to us. “If someone put your life under a microscope, would Christianity be proven or would there be unexplainable holes?” WOW! Talk about sending the message home!

I’ve attended Church & been a Christian as long as I can remember. My church was my second home through middle school. As I entered HS, I strayed so far from my faith. I still attended church & played “Christian” when it fit into MY schedule or benefited me. You don’t have to be a genius to figure out that Mady was born the day we got married!

We attend Sundays for Church & choir, Weds for AWANA, and any other day anything is going on. My girls are immersed in church. They are strong in what they are being taught @ church. But where is God in our home? Sure, we pray before meals, have bedtime prayer, memorize their AWANA verses, and little things like that. But, where is He really? Do they see us turn to God when we have needs? Do they see us thank him for his blessings daily? No, just when it fits into our schedule.

I’ll be the first one to admit I am not perfect. Who is? But what really got me thinking was our small group discussion last night. We talked about our kids & what they see. How many times is it “do as I say, not as I do?” How can I look at my girls’ innocent faces & deny them a true Christian role model? How can I deny them the Peace of God that they deserve to know?

I have nothing to hide, transparency does not scare me. In fact, it holds me accountable! I know that there will be those that read this & laugh or say “see, I told you so.” But so what, I am a hypocrite. Feel better about yourself for laughing? I know that you’re hurting & I’ll pray that you get past your anger one day. I know I feel better admitting my wrongs to myself because I know that I am doing something about it! Starting yesterday!

I know it won’t happen overnight. It will be a rocky road that we will stumble & fall upon. People & obstacles will be placed in our way to test our commitment. My reply to that is BRING IT ON! I am not afraid to fall with Him behind me. My girls are such an inspiration to me! All I have to do is look at them & I know that we are doing our best. Their first steps are nothing compared to hearing them say “Mommy, did you know Jesus loves me & I love him?” or “Can I take my Bible for share day because my friend hasn’t seen one before.” OMGosh! How can I allow myself to stand in their way of knowing Him like that?

My family is more important to me than breathing. I have put up with so much that I never thought I would. My husband & I have made it through the last 5 years (well, 4 yrs 10 months) with minimal scarring, LOL! “That which doth not kill me maketh me stronger” really is true. We’ve come a long way & still have a long way to go. God has blessed us more than we deserve. He’s placed 3 beautiful daughters in our home. It is our job to give them the guidance, love, and support to not only succeed in the world, but also to find their spiritual gifts & use them to do His will. Its time for us to see the BIG PICTURE and stop worrying about our small role!

Superawesomewonderful

Just an update for my faithful friends. We're superawesomewonderful (yep). Melanie took some outdoor photos of the girls yesterday in Liberty (just before the ginormous storm) & I think we'll definitely have some cute ones! Of course, a mosquito attacked Monkey's arm just before the shoot. Seriously, like 8 bites in 1 minute!

Monster received her progress report for shcool & I was right, she is doing AWESOME. Her reading is actually 2 levels abouve where they expect a "beginning 1st grader" to be! I am so glad she loves reading! She needs to be seperated from classmates for some work, but it really helps her focus. I would MUCH rather she have her own desk than be on meds!

Monkey still loves preschool (yay!) and has only "moved her mouse" a couple of times, mostly for talking during circle time. Hmm, no clue where she gets that! SHe can count to 30, knows ll her letters, can WRITE HER NAME with proper upper/lower case, and can even READ SOME WORDS! She wishes she could go every day, just like her big sissy. (I do too sometimes, lol) I do miss her though; it's too quiet around here when she's gone.

Beast, WOW, where do I start?! She is just too big to be so small! She's a whopping (lol) 11 lbs, 3 oz & 24 in long. She's eating more food, pushing herself to a sitting position, crawling a little (well, its more of a scoot), and LOVES to talk! She'll even repeat a few sounds like "ma" "da" and "ka" when you say them to her!!! Her pediatrician says she's actually more on the level of a 6-8 month old! HOLY COW!

I am SO proud of all my smart, beautiful girls!!!

Our church is doing a revolutionary whole church sermon series/small group discussions called "The Truth Project" by Focus on the Family & it is EYE-OPENING to say the least. There are some MAJOR changes happening and I am excited to say that WE are NOT in control! HIS will is our destiny & we just have to open our hearts and let him guide us. I will be the first one to admit that I haven't been completely "in his light" for a long time. But you know, his love is never-ending. We are getting back on track & have seen a change in our lives.

Of course, there is the never-ending story with HRC. But, at this point we've learned to ignore the comments not concerning us. If it isn't about our precious oldest child's health, welfare...we let it go! OMG, how awesome would it have been to do 6 years ago! LOL Anyway, its a lot easier and we're much happier.

I've bought Matt's bday present & he is SUPER EXCITED! Of course, he'll have to wait over a week after his birthday to go but he doesn't mind! I'm sad I'll miss it, but I wanted him to have a guys night w/his cousin Chad! They hardly ever see each other now that they are 4-5 hours apart!

Well, I had a little more to say, but Beast is apparently awake & hungry now! We have a lot planned for the end of this year & a BIG surprise for the beginning of next year! We are SOOO excited! ;) Hope everyone has a great day!

ROTFLMBO

Ok, thanks everyone for the kind notes. I really appreciate them. I am not going to let it worry me, I know God is on my side and hopefully the legal system, but you never can tell about that last one. Here is the "Readers Digest" version.

Her Royal Craziness has been harrassing, stalking, and threatening me (and my children) for years. In April, I received the final straw that broke the camel's back. I decided I'd had enough and it needed to stop. I filed a 50-C, for harrasment & stalking. She didn't show to the first court date (hadn't been 30 days since she was served), so it was continued to June 18. Obviously I couldn't take a newborn baby into the court w/me all day & I was not switching MY child to formula to accomodate yet another piece of drama caused by her. I spoke with my advocate & she said she couldn't ask for a continuance if I couldn't be there. So, she didn't "win" it was just dismissed.

Yesterday, I was served with a civil suit for damges incurred relating to the 50-C case. She is trying to say that I filed it just to harass her & abused the court system. She wants compensation for "transportation, loss of income, as well as needless anxiety and mental anguish." OMGosh! One, she was coming into town that day anyway to pickup Monster the next day (so says her email to us). Two, she doesn't work, so what income did she lose (unless she wants to claim a job, then my hubby can sue for the child support she isn't paying). Three, ANXIETY & MENTAL FRICKIN' ANGUISH? WHERE THE HECK HAS SHE BEEN THE LAST 6 YEARS??? I CAUSED "HER" MENTAL ANGUISH! HILLARIOUS!

She claims I only filed the 50-C to harrass her, but we all know the truth. Her friend threatening me (see previous blog) pushed it all to the forefront & I knew that I needed to stop it right then & there.

It's all gravy baby (LOL)! I still have all the notes, documents, emails, etc that I was going to present to the judge for the 50-C case. Plus, now I have more including things she doesn't have access to anymore because the site shut down. I am praying that the Judge has the wisdom to see through all the lies and craziness to see the truth. That's really all I can ask for.

*funny side note to all my SMoms friends: So, when are we all suing for the "Anxiety & Mental Anguish" the BM's have caused in our lives, our bio's lives, and even our Skids lives? LOL

Manamana...

WOW! So, I think this is the first LONG stretch of quiet time in a while. Matt's off to pick up Monster at school, Monkey's still napping after her busy morning @ preschool, and Beast is amusing herself in her saucer next to me. How is everyone? Glad you asked!

Monster is loving first grade & thinks "it isn't even hard yet!" She is excited to have a guinea pig in the classroom, as well as her best friend! THANK GOD the teacher had the foresight to put them at seperate tables, LOL! She's done well on her homework and will do great on her first spelling test tomorrow. It's amazing to see how much she's learned in a year. I'm so glad we kept up "homework" over the summer & I even have her reading 2 LEVELS higher than when she left kindergarten. She's going to be my little bookworm & I LOVE IT!

Monkey started preschool this week. She hugged us & ran off to play without any looks back. At pickup time she was all smiles and said "Mommy, I love preschool but I missed you and daddy and Beast and Monster.  Is it time to pick up Monster yet?" (all in one breath, LOL) It makes me proud that we've raised such an independent little girl! I didn't think it would bother me too much until I teared up a little at breakfast today. Long story short, I always make extra breakfast because she's always eaten part of mine (even if she has her own). This morning, I couldn't finish my breakfast & realized it was because I had still made that little bit extra for her! AWWWWW! Its ok, I'll be fine (sniffle) because I know she's having a great time & it will be so good for her.

Beast, where do I start?! Of course, she's growing everyday. What you don't know is that she's perfect! LOL She's already so smart, beautiful & FUNNY! How a 3 month old can laugh like she does is AMAZING to me. I can't get over how fast she picks up everything. She's scooting, grabbing, and LOVES "people food" already. Carrots are her fav, but I think mashed potatoes are a close second. We're waiting to get through veggies without allergies (fingers crossed) before fruits, then meats. She's had a couple of treats in the form of cookie nibbles & the pics are SOO cute as you know! I joke around that we'll have to have another just so I can have a "baby" because she came out ready to run.

Baseball games start Saturday, both girls are on the "Athletics" in their age groups. Although I DESPISE the A's (GO DODGERS!), I think its cute they'll match. We'll just pretend the A is for AWESOME, LOL! We're all ready for AWANA to start next week & Daisies will kick off this month for Monster. Matt is doing SUPER in his classes & I am so proud of him for being able to balance family, career, and his DEGREE all at once.

Hope everyone's doing well! I've got to get the girls outfits ready for pictures in the park Sunday! Then Monday, making copies & lining up our little duckies are in a row. ;) Find me on Facebook if you want updates more often! Its much easier to keep up with

I'm Lovin' It

Just thought it was fitting as I was sitting here watching my two oldest girls play dress-up & Beast nap soundly in her swing! I can't decide which is funnier...Monster in a dress that I KNOW she'll never get off without help & shoes that I have no clue how she squeezed into OR Monkey wearing 2 dresses, 2 different shoes, and a batman mask!!! (note to self: buy some bigger dressup items for our giant Monster!)

I hope everyone's had a great summer. Sorry I haven't been on here as much...I've been busy with the family, PTA, planning the Daisy troop year, & planning/organizing our special vacation in January!

LOVE YA!

A spare moment

Hey everyone! I know I just wrote a blog a few days ago, but now I have a little more I REALLY want to share!

Wow, it feels like this year is flying by! Summer seems like its going to be over tomorrow, yet there's another month until Monster will begin first grade, Monkey will start preschool & Beast will be 3 months old!!! I can hardly believe how much life has changed for the better this year.

Matt & I have definitely made "us" a priority.  We've never been so in love, so focused on our family, or so driven to make our lives what we've always dreamed. It's so easy to let ourselves get lost in the day to day happenings & forget to fall in love daily.

This week, we took a WONDERFUL class @ church while the girls enjoyed W.o.W (which is VBS on speed, LOL). Thanks so much to Marty & Debbie for all their love, support, and guidance. I look forward to implementing the information & tools they shared. Our family WILL be transformed in the Spirit. No one will bring us to their level.

We know that God will never put us in any situation we can not handle. He knows our strengths, our weaknesses, and everything in between. He gives us challenges to strengthen our soul, not to weaken our spirit. We will seek his guidance above all & let his wisdom direct our path.

This year will bring new challenges, uncharted territory, and unforseen "LIFE" moments. I know that He will impress upon our hearts the right decisions. I can only hope that we are listening enough to hear them. We've been trusting our worldy knowledge & have been put through enough to break us. I am HAPPY to admit we've been broken down, beaten, bruised, and are dying in this world. The next step is obvious.

Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.

We appreciate all your love & support!

A Midsummer's Update

Hey everyone! We've been so busy lately, but I finally have a little "downtime" while Beast sleeps & Matt spends some daddy/daughter time with Monster & monkey!

Here's a little update:

Monster LOVED kindergarten, but is ready for FIRST GRADE which will start in about a month. She'll even be going to her first sleep-away camp for 4 days in August with our church. I can't believe how much she's grown this year in every way! She is 4 ft tall, can READ (OMG), write stories, and so much more! Daisies has stretched her imagination, brought her out of her shell, and made her so much more confident. Her Faith in God is growing in leaps & bounds. In fact, we just presented her with her first "big girl" Bible! It is a "princess" Bible (daughter of the King) which is magenta & has her name & a tiny butterfly embossed on it (both silver). Matt, myself, and her grandparents each wrote her a short message in it. We talked about the importance of a Bible and how we need to respect it. She can't wait to take it (and her "2 new swimsuits") to camp!

Monkey is now 4! She has more attitude than me (which I didn't believe was possible, LOL) and isn't afraid to speak her mind. Be careful what you wish for peeps! HaHa-she's wonderful! She is still small, but you'd never guess that through her actions & words. She thinks she is "all grown up" and refuses to be "babied." I'm thankful for that, but I wish she'd let us do a little more for a little longer. I hate to see her grow up so quickly. She'll be starting preschool this fall. Three half days per week will give her some structure & me a little one-on-one time with Kamrynn (or some time for my job as PTA secretary). I'll miss her, but it will be good for both of us!

Beast is growing like I can't believe! She's already holding her head up on her own, scooting around, and has so many pre-verbal cues! She is finally out of newborn diapers & may be up to 8 lbs. We'll see at her next appt! She has the most intoxicating little giggle (even in her sleep) and she smiles so brightly! She is a VERY healthy eater. So much that I have trouble keeping up with her sometimes, LOL. Her sisters are so great with her. They even argue over whose turn it is to help, even if it is just to get a wipe out of the container! I love to watch how they smile at her with love in their eyes & Beast's reaction is priceless!

Matt & I celebrated our four year wedding anniversary in July & I couldn't believe it. At times, it feels like we've been together forever. Then others, its like it was just yesterday we were spending a few cold October hours in IHOP after an ERHS football game just catching up. I love him more everyday. "Life" has definitely gotten in the way sometimes, but we've learned how to push things out of our minds & just BE when we are together. I can't imagine life without him & my girls. I am so thankful that the roads we took (no matter how hard & how wrong they seemed at the time) led us to where we are now. Our decisions have made us who we are & I wouldn't change one!

I hope everyone is having a great summer!

The Beast Has Arrived!

Hey Everyone! Baby Beast joined our family on Friday May 22 @ 5:17pm. She was a whopping 6 lbs. 3 oz., 19 inches long. After two weeks of contractions, she DEFINITELY made an entrance into this world! Long story short as possible:

I'd been dilated up to 3 sm for the last few weeks. Thursday evening/Friday am "real" contractions began, so we made our way to the birth center (an hour from home). I was still only at a 4 after 3 hours, so @ 1:30pm we made the decision to come home and wait a while before we would return to the birth center. At 5:00, I knew we had to leave. As I stood up to get ready, my water broke. I felt intense pressure and with the next contraction, I yelled for Matt to call an ambulance because there was no way I would make it to the brth center. I made it to the bathroom & with the next contraction, I delivered her myself while Matt was on the phone with EMS. Matt tied off her umbilical cord with his shoe string & wrapped us in towel. So, the entire Climax Fire Department (including my HS colorguard instructor's husband that I have known for 12 years) arrived, then EMS. So, needless to say, her first vehicle ride was in an ambulance!!! We spent the night at Randolph hospital to get checked out. Mom & baby are both doing great! Her big sisters were a little scared by her amazing arrival, but are completely smitten with her! I think Monster will pet her skin off if we don't watch her, LOL!

Healthy visitors are welcome...all others, phone calls would be GREAT!

Just thought my friends would LOVE to read this! Isn't it hillarious. I would let you guys know the myspace ID it came from (and the stalker ex), but it really doesn't matter. My friends don't fight my battles. In response to “friend”, you (and anyone else) are WELCOME to stop reading my blogs any time.

"HRC's Friend's" message to me:
Hello "IMPERFECT PERFECTION" and the wonderful, untouchable person that you think you are! In regards to you blog post that apparently you want everyone to read or else you'd have your page private (like most parents with kids and all the drama you claim to have would)! You claim that HRC is the one who creates all the drama in your life but I have come to believe that someone like you feeds off of it! First of all being one of HRC's best friends I do not think very highly of the fact that you post such mean bull shit about my friend on your page almost daily! Do you feel like you have to post every part of your life bc your not important enough for someone/anyone to ask what's been going on with you? Or are you that popular in your own mind that you think the whole world gives a shit?? And in response to your blog yes MONSTER does live with you which I think was the biggest mistake ever made in a court room ever ever ever!! That little girl should be with her REAL MOMMY and not with people who have to lie about a black eye and then not only be coward enough to have to write it in a letter instead of looking a mother in her face and telling her what really happened to HER little girl but you were worried enough about what everyone else thought that you had to defend yourself on Myspace of all places to air your dirty laundry!!! And as far as calling her a HEFFER have you looked in the mirror? you make two of her and one of me put together and that's pre baby!! Watch what you say about my friend BC there are poeple right behind her instead of like yourself who has no one bc your a waste of life!! You really must be a miserable person bc the only person you have to talk to and that will listen is your keyboard and that's bc you have total control over it like you try to have with everyone else!! Well it was the highlight of my day to tell you what a turd you are wait it's only 4 in the morning I'm sure something better than you has got to happen today if not I'd be as lonley as you!! I can't wait to see what you have to blog about now!! I'd love to tell you what a wonderful great person, mother, and wife you are but I'd be lying like the reason for MONSTER's black eye!! I hope you treat your other kids better than you do her or do you just have them brain washed as well? Ok well I have much better things to do bye bye love!!

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My reply:

"Daily? I post about her daily? WOW! That’s great for her, considering I post blogs once or twice a week. I wonder how often she checks my page in her copious amounts of spare time.

I post to my blog because I have friends all over the country. I grew up in CA & am still friends with people I have known my entire life. I have plenty of people to talk to in person, but thanks for your concern. By the way, were you trying to threaten me with the “watch out” comment?

As to my weight, I have nothing to prove. Pre-baby I was a very happy and healthy 190 and have only gained 14 lbs. So, unless she is 45 lbs. & you a mere 90, then no, I am not two of her plus one of you. But thanks.

WOW, as to the "black eye" anyone who wants to see a picture of it can email me. I have pics of her face ALL day at her Easter party @ school. We didn’t try to hide it. The only reason we sent HRC an email about OUR little girl is because we didn’t want to sit in the parking lot talking to her at the exchange, especially with the way it has been raining lately. We don't need to lie. It was an accident and we don't have to account to HRC or anyone else. If she has a problem, she can call social services and take the pictures she took in her mother-in-law’s bathroom to report it. Let them investigate yet another FALSE claim by her and further prove what a psycho she is. (isn't that the most HORRIBLE "black eye"....riiiiiiight)

Monster is right where she is supposed to be. No other explanation necessary. There are 36 cited reasons (and countless others) in the order as to why she is here with us. You weren’t even there. She is with her Daddy & Mommy here just as much as she is with her Mommy & Daddy when she is with them. So, if she wants to talk “real” then we’ll talk who is REALLY here for Monster. That’s right, Matt & myself.

Let me just say, THANKS for being the highlight of your morning. At 4 am, I was sleeping because I have a beautiful kindergartner & a gorgeous 3 yr old to be with in the morning as well as a growing girl to keep healthy. I was not worrying about my best friend’s ex-husband’s wife’s blog. Who’s the one without a life? Shouldn’t you be worrying with your baby girl, not me? Maybe you should spend some time with a dictionary & thesarus as well as fixing your run-on sentences and grammatical errors.

My husband will be contacting HRC regarding any issues as well as our attorney & I will be blocking you. Have a great day."

So, um, yeah - can you say crazy?  This is only a small snapshot of what we deal with daily.

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday!

WOW! Busy weekend for sure, but wondermous!

Thursday was Monster's school dance. (She almost didn't get to go because of some classwork being unfinished, but we worked hard!) Let me just say...AWW, how cute! Those K-2 kids dance more than the middle schoolers. I was in charge of taking pics for PTO & Matt danced with his girls. PRECIOUS!

Then I had my MK meeting later that night. WOO HOO! It was great to see "my girlz" and have some me time. When I got home, Monster was laying in my bed with ice on her face & I could've killed Matt. Apparently, Monster thought that playing in my makeup would be a "good choice." When he went to check on her after her shower, she was covered in it. He had no clue what was all over her and she wouldn't tell him. She tried to "escape" (LOL) and hide her face, and his hand/ebow came straight across her left eye/cheek. OMGosh, she had a pretty good bruise. (of course, this weekend HRC told her it was on puropse because daddy is mean...whatever crazy heiffer...if you have to tear down Matt to make yourself feel better, go ahead, we know the truth. That's why she lives HERE thank you very much!)

Friday, I was with Monster's class all day. They had Easter crafts, pizza, and an egg hunt. Those kids were like crazy little animals, but it was so much fun!

Monkey spent the night w/Granny & Matt was working, so I enjoyed some quiet time alone! It was nice to have some "morning time" with Matt when he got home too.

Both girls had games Saturday. They had a blast & did so well! Matt's parents & Steven were able to make it...plus Andrew & Brittany came in from Franklin! They had their own little cheering section.

Monster hit from the first two pitches EVERY time! Not so bad for only having 2 practices because of rain! She still kinda skips from base to base, but at least its a faster skip this year, LOL. Although, it wouldn't really matter. There aren't "winners" in their age groups this year. It makes the games even more fun to watch. No screaming parents, no one trying to fight over an out, the kids just have fun & play ball. Now, I'm not one of those parents who thinks "everyone should win." I think a little competition is GREAT for kids. However, kids ages 3-6 should be given the opportunity to really LEARN and enjoy ball before they have to worry about scoring.

Monkey was too cute, as always! She doesn't hit very far, but runs like a tasmanian devil! We like to call it "bunting." LOL She wasn't catching any balls, but she FINALLY decided that ONE BALL was going to be hers. She actually elbowed a boy twice her size when he tried to get in front of her for it! No, it wasn't ok, but it was hillarious. Even the boy's mom was yelling "You get that ball Monkeygirl." She's definitely not one to be pushed around (that's my girl!) Now, if I can find a way to make her hat fit without it giving her an egghead.

Of course, there couldn't be one day without drama.  HRC had to mark her territory with Monster's AWANA teacher, of all people. I mean, this woman has known Ashley (and us) for almost 4 years and she was just saying hi. All Monster did was ask if her teacher had seen us. When the teacher said she hadn't seen her "mommy and daddy" I guess  HRC  felt that she needed to make sure that she KNEW that Monster was HERS, not mine, in a pretty rude way.

But, the sad part is that the AWANA teacher already knew. Most people do. Ya see, we don't hide the fact that Ashley is not my biological child like she thinks we do. (especially when she looks like she did Staurday...OMG, comb your child's hair and put clean socks of her own - not your dirty ones - on her....gross!) How else would we explain to her church teachers that she isn't there every other Sunday? We just leave her at home??? RIIIIGHT!

Monster even asked "mommy, why was "HRC" so mean to Mrs.X? I like having two mommies and two daddies. isn't that ok?" Isn't that sad? She is such a smart girl & I can't wait to see when the lightbulb finally clicks and she speaks her mind freely. I'm sure we're all in for an earfull! (and just a sidenote...what do you think the crazy heiffer who SWEARS she gave up smoking because it is "bad" and Monster has allergies was doing when we walked up...YEP, that's right, puff puff puffaroo! What a GREAT example for your children.

Enough of that (smacks hand)...

Today was the White's Memorial Community Egg Hunt & it was a perfect day for it! I'm sure I got more sun than I needed, but it was better than the rain we've had the last two years. Monkey got about 8 prize eggs. She picked out a basket for herself & then asked if she could get one for Monster & Beast. She also picked out games and toys that she & Monster could share. (isn't that sweet...I am so proud of her!) We won't have Monster for Easter this year, but I'm sure the Easter Bunny will leave her basket filled to the top just like the rest of ours as he always does.

Beast has been especially active this week. I LOVE IT, but I wish she'd pick better times. Thanks for the comments & messages about her 4-D scan! If you haven't seen them, check them out! It is amazing how clear they are!

Hope everyone has a great week! I know we will. Matt took Wednesday & Thursday night off, so he'll be off ALL WEEK!

See ya later alligators!

Today is Wednesday!

Today is Wednesday, Today is Wednesday, Wednesday ZOOOP, Tuesday Spaghetti, Monday String Beans, All you hungyry children come & eat it up, come & eat it up, COME & EAT IT UUUUUUUUUUUUP! LOL, anyone ever read Eric Carle's Today is Monday? It's a great book, but an even better song! Anyway, thought I'd fill everyone in on the latest.

We had our BC appt Thursday.  The Beast is growing right on schedule. Monster helped our midwife use the doppler to find her heartbeat. Monkey was still a little unsure, she always thinks it hurts me. I love our BC & can't imagine pre-natal care or delivery any other way. It is the best to be be able to share every moment we choose to with our family.

Then, Friday...(drumroll) WE HAD OUR 4-D SCAN! WOW! That's all I can say...yeah right! It was amazing, beautiful, and magical. I thought that everyone else would be in another room, but their viewing area was in there with me! So Monkey sat by my head and Monster had to be right by my tummy watching every move. She even tried to "help" the tech on the computer (oops). Monkey kept laughing and saying "Mommy look, its baby Beast and she's so tiny, I LOVE HER" & it really helped her connect!  Monster was laughing and jumping around. She even sang her a song to get her moving a little better. (Beast already loves music!) my mother in law cried, of course. They all want me to have her now, but I think we'll wait a little while longer (hopefully).

Beast cooperated SO well. I had to reposition a few times to get her to turn her face toward us, but the images were as clear as they could be! I guess all that H2O I had to drink really helped. She smiled, she sucked her fingers (and toes), and she even WAVED! The funniest thing was when she used her hands to cover her face when she was "done." I can't WAIT to meet her in person! I think she's going to round out our household perfectly! Of course, we'll have to build Matt a "man hut" in a few years to escape to, but he's loving every minute of his dress wearing, princess loving, pink and purple little girls' lives!

Of course, it rained ALL week, so the girls games were cancelled last Saturday (BOO), but they still had their pics taken. They were sooo cute! Their games were rescheduled for THIS Saturday, so we'll be out all afternoon. OMGosh, Monkey's shirt is ginormous on her. I hope I can shrink it a little. She's the only girl on her team & is spoiled by the other mom's. They fawn all over her & her pink equipment, LOL!!!

Sunday afternoon & all day Monday, I cleaned & organized! The girls even helped. Mosnter is obsessed with helping me out right now. I don't know who is "nesting" more, me or her! She has made it her job to help me with all the laundry. I think she'd do it herself if she could reach in the wash machine. She learned how to pair socks & I thought she was going to cry when they were all done. I know that one day I'll be forcing her to do it, so I'm enjoying it while it lasts.

We put all the fall/winter clothes in totes in the attic, went through all the Spring/Summer totes to see what fits who this year, and then came the fun part: THE BABY TOTE!!! WOOHOO! So bittersweet. I have thouroughly enjoyed this pregnancy & don't want to end the closeness I feel w/Beast. At the same time, I can't wait for her to be here in our lives so I can share her with the world!

I can't believe it, but Mosnter will be SIX in a month! Where has time gone? It seems like just yesterday I was meeting her for the first time @ Steven's basketball game. She was only 6 months old. She has grown into such a smart & beautiful little girl. While I know I didn't create her physically, I have shaped her in many other ways. We are so proud of her and and can't wait to see what she brings to the world in the future! She decided that she wanted a special "big girl" party with about five of her friends this year instead of a big "family" party. So, she'll have her party with friends. Then we'll be have a small family dinner for us & grandparents on her actual bday.

Hope everyone has a great week! I'll catch ya later...XOXO

Another Update

WOOHOO! It's Sunday night & everything is all right, LOL! Time for a little update for those I can't keep up with every day...I still love you all though!

Last week was very busy, but interesting.

We met w/Ash's counselor & I am happy to say that she is coming along quite well in her confidence. She feels that Ashley is getting better at expressing her feelings instead of holding them in, she is becoming more independent, and making great strides toward being completely comfortable with making her OWN choices. As far as her mother goes, her counselor feels Matt should give her only the information required in the order until she chooses to cooperate like an equal parent in Ashley's life in ALL respects.

She feels sad that Ashley is being punished by not getting to participate on "her" time. She is also concerned about some statements that were recently made by Ashley. Apparently, she overheard her mother saying that she wished Matt would be shot at work & that a stranger would kill me, Mady & the baby. WOW, what a depraved soul! As much as I dislike her, I would never wish her child harm. That is completely unexceptable. Anyway, now Ashley is afraid every time Matt goes to work. We're working on it by letting her call him right before bed & any time she wakes up during the night.

I don't know why her mother thinks Ashley is so unhappy. Then again, maybe it makes her feel better about the situation. I guess we'll never know. Ashley is such a happy girl in all that she does. I wish that she could see that without all the drama, Ashley could be even happier. I mean, wouldn't it be nice if she could feel that she could love both parents without feeling like she is hurting someone? We've made her feel that on our end & it has really changed her perspective. She knows that she is welcome to talk to us about anything, no matter what.

In fact, she loves to talk about her other sister (whose name will not be used here) at her mother's house & how much she is growing. Yeah, she complains that she cries all the time (she's only about a year old & apparently teething), but we explain that she did the same thing when she was little.

Her counselor feels that we are really doing what is best for Ash by giving her the security to express her feelings about BOTH homes without fear of reprimand or redirection. No, I don't love hearing about "them" but it's what Ashley needs that is important & it really only happens on Sun?mon right after we pick her up or other mini-random Ashley moments, LOL. So, we listen & help her process her thoughts a little. Then, we simply change the subject. It is getting much easier and it really is making her transitions much easier.

Her counselor also mentioned that Ashley was bothered by how much her mother was "bugging her about Kamrynn." GEEZ! Come on, can we not have anything that she doesn't interfere with? Yeah, we did ask Ashley not to tell her about OUR baby until we were ready. I don't think there is anything wrong in that. Matt & I wanted to tell our family & friends first. As his ex, she is neither of those two categories. She is the last person that has the right to know. Why should we feel obligated to tell her? Especially after her intrusion and feeling of entitlement with our miscarriage last May. Why she would question a 5 yr old until she cries is beyond me. She could have just asked us if she were that curious. Then again, obviously, when I posted it on myspace it was public knowledge.

Anyway, she also let us know that the craziness on the mother's end will probably get worse before it gets better (of course) because she will try to amp it up when we don't react. Let's hope we can stand our ground.

Enough of that...

Matt & I helped out with Ashley's kindergarten "Spring Madness" day. They explored Paper & Wood. Each of the four classes had a different theme & stations. I got "folding paper into cups & bunnies" while Matt was SUPER LUCKY and got to help them fold 6 different types of paper in half and in half again and again until they couldn't fold it anymore. LOL!!! I made over 70 cups & 70 bunnies during the day, but it was so worth it! It was fun to watch these little brains be amazed that a square piece of paper could be a cup or even a bunny! BTW, I NEVER want to see another paper bunny in my life! J/K

On the baby front...Kamrynn is oh so active! Wow, Mady wasn't ever this wiggly. I love it & yet, I would love a good night's sleep sometime, LOL. I guess that's what naps are for, too bad I have a 3 and a half year old too! Ashley & Mady are waiting intently for their baby sister.

We go for a 4-D ultrasound this Friday & I can't wait! Matt & I will be in one room with the ultrasound tech, while the girls, Angie, my lil sis Becca, my lil bro Robby & his gf are all going to get to see it on a 50" tv as it happens, is that not cool? We get to see her face, her tiny little body, and get a real sense of who she is! BTW, we found out there may be a chance she is a "he." So, if that happens, we're all in for a surprise. I'll post the pics this weekend of course.

Since we're making some changes around the house to accomodate our little one, we're pretty busy. Nothing major of course, but still necessary. We downsized the living rm (entertainment cntr & desk) which is something I've wanted to do for a WHILE! Plus, we had to make room for MAtt's valentine's day present...a 42" LCD! We rearranged our bedroom for her crib which is a cute sleigh style 4-in one combo that will grow with her (thanks Dad). Kam will stay in our room for a while (prob about 6 mos), then she'll move into the girls' room.

We gave Ashley the choice of her own room, but she said she wanted to keep the playroom. She just asked if she could have the "top bed" & if we could repaint their bedroom with a Disney Princess theme. Mady wants Little Mermaid, Ashley wants "all the other princesses." I guess that's not too much to ask. We even found "baby princesses" for Kamrynn when she moves in!

I'll be sad to see the monkeys & giraffes go this summer...all that hard work, but it shows me how they're growing up & making their own choices. Plus, they'll love helping us paint and decorate! I LOVE IT! We'll just have to make sure we have pictures to put in their albums before we start.

Ashley & Mady both know they'll have their own rooms in the next two years when we build our new home, so its not a big deal. They've already picked out which one will be theirs & everything! The they love to stare at the house plan & say "that's my room" "that's your room" "that's baby Kamrynn's room" and "that's going to be where we play!

I think we're slowly getting to a point of calmness around here. Just in time for a tiny one to throw that all out the window, right? LOL

So, I'll catch ya later everyone...same bat time, same bat channel!

LEPRECHAUNS!

YAY! The Leprechaun trap is finished & works great! I wonder if they'll catch one today, LOL. The pics are up & you have to check them out. We had a BLAST making it. We all helped, including Matt's parents & brother, so it truly was a family project. Matt & Monster took it in yesterday morning & she wouldn't let any of her friends near it. She'd say "ok guys, you can look but I have to show you how it works!"

Matt & his dad rigged it like the game mousetrap!!! There's a wire attatched to a gold weight. When the Leprechaun pulls the gold, it trips a wire that pulls out a stopper. The stopper releases the marble which goes down through a hose & through a rainbow PVC pipe. It snaps a mousetrap (safeguarded with catch hooks so tiny fingers don't get caught in it) which pulls a stick & catches the leprechaun in a box!

OMGosh, it was HILLARIOUS to watch them try to get it to work. I helped them figure out a few "logistical problems" but mostly, I worked on the creative design part.  Monster used power tools, helped spray paint, wrote the words, and did a LOT of work herself! Even Mady helped by putting Shamrock stickers ALL over it.

While the "boys" & Ash were doing the mechanics, I showed Angie (Matt's Mom) how to play Wii Sports. I thought I was going to have to pry her away! I think the Wii is really going to be a fun family activity. We even had Larry (Matt's Dad) playing before the end of the day!!!

I am so thankful for our family. I wouldn't trade them for the world!

BTW...the girls' baseball Opening Day will be March 28 at Pleasant Garden Community Center! Let me know if ya wanna come out & watch...I'll send you the times!

Sad for you.

It's so sad to see that "HRC" has to try to tear me down to make herself feel better. Really. Thanks to my special friend for keeping me in the loop. Did you guys know that I am fat & ugly? WOW, thanks for letting me know. I am pregnant, what's your excuse? As to the ugly, well, God made me in his image, so what are you trying to say? My daughters & husband tell me every day how beautiful I am. I trust their judgement much more than yours.

Well, anyway...now that its out of my system, let's take it out of my hands...

Dear Lord, please help her to find the inner peace that only you offer. Open her eyes to see your blessings as you designed them, not just as she desires them to be. Bless her family, her home, and all that she encounters. Help her in her daily walk with you to grow and get past the hurt and anger that is tearing apart her soul.

Help me to see past all the wrongs and accept your will. I know that you have our lives in your hands at all times. Help me to let go of the little things as I see the whole picture you've painted before me. Thank you for reminding me daily of our gifts you have given. These things I ask of you in your son's name. Amen

Freedom!

I've been doing this for 5 years & I JUST YESTERDAY finally removed her completely. When Matt & I first got together, he was only 21 & Monster was only 6 mos. old. HRC had never let him be a parent (except when SHE wanted to do something), so he had no clue what he was doing. She also THOUGHT she had his (excuse the expression) "balls in a sling." She would hold Monster over his head EVERY time he breathed wrong.

Anyone who knows my background with kids knows that I just naturally fell into the role of "mom." I couldn't ever dream of doing to him what she was, so I made SURE that he saw his daughter when he was supposed to & as soon as we had enough amo, went to court & won!

I have been SO emotionally & physically invested, but have realized that he is now 27, we have a 3 1/2 yr old child together & one on the way, and he is a police officer. If he doesn't know how to be a parent & deal with her crazyiness by now, we're in trouble, LOL.

So, he & I talked about our situation. He's always done most of the "work" with her, but I've made sure to block her (and all the other crazies on her end) emails completely. We decided that I only need to check the Yahoo! group messages if he is unavailable & something is time sensitive. She lives 3 hours away & it isn't like we'll run into each other every day or anything like that, so I hope I've pretty much removed her from my "inner sanctum" & can deal with her through Matt from now on. The only thing he & I have to talk about concerning her is Monster & that will be limited because our order is crystal clear!

Monster is seeing her counselor today (THANK GOD for that woman). I really think she would be an emotional wreck without her. We'll be setting up an appointment for just us to talk about how to make the best of the situation we now have, as bad as it may seem I know there HAS to be a way to make it work.

On another note, it was so great to have Monster LITERALLY run into my arms when we picked her up yesterday & hug me so tight! She almost knocked me over. Its THOSE moments that make it all worthwhile. All the other craziness melts away & I remember I don't care how crazy her mother gets, what stunts she tries to pull, or even about the empty threats she makes. This is all what we make it & I plan on having a GREAT life! Anyone want to join me? LOL

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Observations & Changes

So, as you can tell, I have fixed my page now. Not sure what the issue with the blogs & comments, but its all gravy now, LOL.

OMGosh! Matt & I are SO sick & tired of "Her Royal Craziness." He's been doing a great job of keeping me out of it (THANKS BABY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH). But lately, the site they use to communicate has been crashing & Matt's been using my AOL account for email purposes. Yes, Matt has email addys but he blocked both her & her husband a while back (and he only checks his email when I remind him, LOL). Well, anyway, every time I signed on AOL, I was bombarded with her emails & had to save them for when he was available to read & respond to them. Sometimes, he would even hit "send later" so that she wouldn't get them until he was at work & he wouldn't have to repsond! EVIL LITTLE MONKEY, LOL!!!

Ok, so ummm...NO. I want to make sure Matt receives the info he needs, but I am not going to deal with her bull anymore. So, to take care of that issue, I have blocked her email, her husband's, and even her mom's (just for safe measure). Isn't AOL wonderful to have such customizable SPAM filters so that I don't even have to know anything was sent! It just deletes it befoe it hits my inbox!!!

Matt wrote them both an email & told them they could use the custody planner site (when it isn't having issues) or the Yahoo! Group we set up to communicate anything Ashley related. Can we say YAY ME for totally removing her from my personal life! (well, I am sure she is still checking me here, but that's fine) She wants ME to be uninvolved, but is now forwarding ALL her emails to her husband to "edit" before she reads them! CRACK ME UP! How precious is that, she can't even handle what she dishes out.

But anyway, after the most recent dramafest, Matt's decided to give her what she wants...the ability to focus on her other child & only worry about Monster 4 days a month. She seriously told him that HE has to deal with any issues that Ashley has from now on, so he's going to. Of course, he'll continue to put Monster's activities & their dates/times/locations on the shared calendar because he's required to. All the extra stuff that we try to include her on is out the window. When Monster lost her tooth & we called her to let Monster tell her.  Right thing to do?  We thought so.  Instead she said we were rubbing it in her face.  Mosnter said "she wasn't even excited a little bit." HOW SAD IS THAT?

Well, all of this weekend's lovlineness stems from her freaking out & starting a downward spiral (again). This time, about GS COOKIE MONEY & RAFFLE TICKETS! Seriously? OMGosh! Great job on picking something to make a big deal. She was supposed to bring them Friday & left them at her house 3 hours away. The cookie money is taken care of at this point, but we have to sell ALL 10 raffle tickets by next Saturday and she's had them for three weeks. (LET ME KNOW IF YOU'D LIKE TO HELP HER TEAM OUT)

 She hasn't sold even ONE but Matt is supposed to say "that's ok" and sell them IF she even overnights them like she said she would! (btw, what kind of parent or grandparent can't even buy ONE raffle ticket or ONE chocolate bar for a fundraiser, WOW!!!) So, now she is making it a point that she will not do fundraising anymore. CONGRATULATIONS ON TAKING ANOTHER STEP BACK FROM BEING AN ACTIVE PARENT! QUIT CRYING ABOUT NOT BEING INVOLVED WHEN YOU ARE CHOOSING TO DISENGAGE!

She also thinks that she can dictate to Matt that he can't come to Monster's activities on "her time." Um, I don't remember that being in the order. If it were, she wouldn't be allowed to go on field trips, go to her dance recital, et cetera because they are all during "his time." Right now, she's saying that Monster won't attend activities on "her time" if Matt is there. Which, of course, we can't do anything about, but oh well.

It's really so sad that she still thinks Monster is a toy that she can take away when Matt "misbehaves." But guess what! Ashley is a person & she can't hold that over his head anymore. The Judge made sure that wouldn't happen again. I am so glad that its all over, but at the same time it never will be. At least not until she can let it all go & make the choices that are best for Monster.

I just don't see how keeping Monster from activities on her time could affect us. We've already paid for them, we don't get penalized, and it also saves us having to deal with her & having to pretend to get along in front of  Monster. So, the only one that is getting hurt is  Monster. Ya know, I can't wait until Monster is old enough to really understand what is going on. She'll be able to read ALL the emails, court docs, and everything else. It will all be so much clearer to her who had her best interest in mind & who was being vindictive.

Yes, I know you're reading this & no, I don't really care, obviously. Yes, we should all get along for Monster's sake, but I am done being fake in front of her. Yes, I will be cordial when necessary, but I will no longer engage in meaningless conversations that get us nowhere. I am a very happy person & I refuse to let you change that. So, when you are at an activity/event with us, please find your own space away from us, ESPECIALLY my children. I WILL NOT let your negativity affect them. It already affects  Monster  enough. As always, she can come to you on our time to say hello & goodbye or take any pictures. The same respect on your part would be wonderful. If not, well, she'll understand soon enough.

THANKS EVERYONE!!!

Updates & more...

Hey everyone! Life's been SO busy lately, but its all worth it! School was cancelled Mon & Tues because of the weather & we've been playing in the snow enjoying the last few days of  Monster 's "Spring Break" (they have to make up the 4 snow days).

Matt & I have been spending more time with each other, focusing on US and forgetting about the stressors that life's thrown at us for a while. I am happy to say that we are looking forward to this summer when we'll celebrate our 4 year wedding anniversary! It's hard to believe we'll have been together 6 years this November!!! He's still working nights patrolling the streets of Ramseur. I am working my Mary Kay business & substitute teaching @ Grays Chapel.

Monster's doing great in school. She had some trouble understanding rhyming words (very funny stories to go with that), but now that it's clicked she's off & running again. There have been a few discipline issues her counselor feels is stemming from wanting some extra attention the last few weeks (not from us), but that's all under control too! THANK YOU to everyone that purchased Girl Scout Cookies. She has sold OVER 300 BOXES & can't wait to get her build-a-bear gift certificate & all her other prizes! She is loving Daisies & all that she is learning (me too!).

Her dance class is now getting boring for her, so I don't think we'll do it again next year. She is excited about doing a tap song to "Walk the Dinosaur" and LOVES her ballet costume though, so its ok. Her progress in AWANA & her ability to memorize her verses astounds me! When her friend's father passed away recently, Ashley prayed for her & her family at church in front of the AWANA group & I almost cried. She is growing up so quickly & I am proud to see her journey with Christ everyday. She'll have her first t-ball practice this Saturday & we are so excited!

Monkey...WOW, where to begin! She's definitely not Ashley, LOL. They love to be together, but have such different personalities. I love to see them play, it makes all the drama worth enduring. She is having a great time in Cubbies, learning a little more about how a tiny Christian can help friends, family, and others. She has "watered down" verses to memorize, but enjoys learning them. In fact, she will remind me that she has to learn it (especially if  Monster  is working on hers).

She is still super excited about dance & even has the dances memorized WITHOUT THE MUSIC! She'll do them at home & sing the songs herself & I can't wait for the recital on June 6. She'll either do it in front of everyone or just stand there...hmmm, we'll see. She had her first tball practice last Saturday. Well, technincally it became a parent meeting because of the rain, but she THINKS it was practice, LOL. Her first real one will be this week. It is the cutest thing to see her in her helmet & tiny bat. She's still only 36" tall & wears 2-3T clothes. We bought XXS pants & I still had to hem them!

Kamrynn is growing everyday, of course. The girls love to sit & feel her kick at night. We even have one of those dopplers w/headphones so we can hear her kick. The best is recording it at night (when she's most active) & playing it for the girls in the moring on our surround sound. It sounds like we're in there with her!!! Ashley's favorite is the most recent "hiccup episode." Madyson asks our Midwife at every visit if we can take the baby home yet. We are so blessed that our girls are excited & not dreading our newest family member! (check out the COMING SOON blog for more Kamrynn info & due date tickers)

Also, court was "over" November 2007, but then she appealed. That was denied in October this past year, but we had to wait for our evidence to be released. We FINALLY got it all back today (which included our family album). So, we're spending Thursday evening (our only free evening that Matt is off) going through it & adding pics to it from Oct 2007 through now! I also finished the baby book for Miss Kamrynn & we'll be adding the ultrasound pics, as well those from the Birth Center visits & the girls making their shirts! Ash & Mady can't wait!

WOO HOO SCRAPBOOKING SECTION HERE I COME!!!

I hope everyone has a great week & don't forget to set your clocks ahead before you go to sleep Saturday!!!

Drum Roll Please!

We're having a GIRL!!!

Yep, another girl. Baby Beast will be joining our family soon, but not soon enough!  Monster  & Monkey were a little upset that it was not a baby brother (probably our fault). Monkey actually cried in the ultrasound room saying "but I want a baby brother not a baby sister." Monky was much more ok with the idea after we told her she could teach her how to play Little Mermaid! Monster was so great...she told Monkey that she'll love having a baby sister because Monkey is her favorite already & Baby Beast will be her other favorite!

Both girls were already kissing my tummy & saying "I love you Beast" before we left! OMGosh, I almost cried!!! Of course, they helped us pick out the names. Yes, we were hoping for a boy, but we're all getting used to the idea of another girl running around the house in a princess gown!

After the ultrasound we left for a GREAT beach trip to Oak Island! We went out on the beach 3 times. Not too bad for January, huh? We even took the girls out at 6:30 in the am to look for sand dollars since they were both up anyway. After about fifteen minutes of freezing my face off, of course we left. We also went to the Aquarium, OKI Lighthouse, and spent some time w/Matt's cousin.

Before we left Monday, it was about 50 degrees. The girls actually took their shoes off, rolled up their jeans and played in the surf!!! OMG, it was SOOO fun. We wanted to get hermit crabs, but NO ONE had them...not to mention most of the WINGS were closed anyway! I guess they aren't as popular in the winter. So, we'll get them when we get back, probably a LOT cheaper!  Monster picked out "big girl" souvenirs (like pencils & a jewelry box) wherever we went. She didn't want stuffed animals or water squirting puffer fish like Monkey, LOL!!!

We hated to leave a day early, but we really didn't want to drive home in the snow Tuesday. BTW, how cool is it that we were playing in the sand & surf one day then making snowmen (even if they were only 6 in. tall) the next? The girls were AMAZED!!! I can't wait to take Baby Beast w/us this summer!

HRC Moment

So, we all know Monster's mom (Her Royal Craziness) gets her 2 weekends a month...this is supposed to be one of them. Before we left our house to go to the meeting place, I HONESTLY looked at Matt & said "I have a feeling she isn't going to be there." Well, I am not psychic by any means, but ya know how those gut feelings work...

Well, we show up at the meeting place (an hour drive for us, 1 and a half for her) & wait 20 minutes...still no show from HRC. So, Matt called her at home to leave her a message (she has no cell phone & he has to be to work at 6:30, so we couldn't wait any longer) here's how it went:
Matt: HRC, I'm @ meeting place, why are you still at home?
HRC: It's not my weekend
Matt: Yes it is.
HRC: Well, I guess I totally f*ing forgot. What do we do?"
Matt: I have to be at work & Kandice has plans tonight. Can you get your mom (who lives in our town) to pick Monster up at the PD (where he works) at 6:30 & bring her to you?
HRC: I can try.

Well, a few minutes later she calls back & said her mom can't pick up Monster at that time/place, but she can pick her up 20 miles away from the PD at the same time. Well, obviously that posed a problem. He told her that wouldn't work & she started screaming at him & cussing. HA HA, that went over like a lead brick. We refused to answer her calls for the next half hour of our drive. It wasn't like we could do anything until we got back to town anyway.

So, she left 5 CRAZY messages threatening us with police & all that drama, saying we were denying her visitation. She actually DEMANDED (used the word & everything) that he call her in 10 minutes OR ELSE. What I wanted to say was..."OK, UM DUH, YOU FORGOT YOUR CHILD YOU CRAZY WOMAN & WE ARE TRYING TO ARRANGE ANOTHER WAY FOR YOU TO STILL HAVE TIME WITH HER & YOU ARE GOING TO TRY TO DICTATE TO US WHERE WE WILL MEET YOUR MOTHER?! As Dr. Phil says "How's that working for you?" Next time, we won't bother calling you!!!"

Anyway, we know there is NOTHING a police officer/deputy can do except say pretty please. Matt called the grandma (her mom) & explained the situation. GUESS WHAT! She agreed to meet us at the PD at the requested time...AMAZING RIGHT?

Meanwhile, poor Monster is crying & wondering why HRC forgot her.  (Phone was on speaker because it was broken)  Now she has to be in a car for 5 hours straight, because the grandma is bringing her to the meeting place where HRC will pick her up. Poor baby, I felt so bad for her. Just another thing for her counselor to deal with Monday I guess. Hmmm...for someone who hates us for "stealing her child" (HA), she sure did make a BIG mistake!!! If I was only able to see MY child for 4 days a month, you better believe I would know when those days were!!!

So, anyway, thanks for reading, have a great weekend everyone!